Fears I need to work on......

So last night I had a dream I was in full on labor. I go natural and I am use to a midwife so it was a hard dream.  It was intense and the doctor kept putting me in all kinds of contortionist positions as if I am flexible or something. I threw up because he kept doing that. I was fine  and all in labor until it was time to push and then I started giving up and the baby almost got stuck and everyone kept telling me to keep going and I refused and didn't want to. When I woke up I realized that I had a fear and no faith in my doctor that is helping me this time, not because he's not good or anything, it's only because I have more faith in midwifes and how they helped me get through it. I have to remember that with my first five children I had a regular doctor and I had faith in him and I even chose to go natural with Violet my fourth child and it went beautifully. So I need to work on my faith and get rid of my fears before I have this baby! Man that dream got me all worked up to have this baby, now I can't wait!